Wargoski

Today my main goal is to have a good day. Lets see how this goes. I have been having a bad month so I am not sure how this will go. I am just praying this is a good day.

I am having to cut down on one of my meds so it will make it a bit difficult.

I also am cutting down on smoking by smoking American Spirits. There all natural with no chemicals. My goal is 10 Cigarettes today then 8 tomorrow. Let see how this goes!

Thanks for browsing my page everyone! Ill keep you posted.

I am starting to wonder if there are any effect from my meds. They seem to partially work cause I do get drowsy at times but overall my mood feels the same as it does any day (goes up and down)

I have a good lead on a new apartment which is nicer then the one I am living in right now! Hopefully everything works out.

I want to see my family and hang out... there so "busy" I guess.

What a fucking day..

Today has been a horrible day. My toilet broke. My meds got screwed up at the pharmacy. And it seems like the last 6 days have been a blur.

I am praying that tomorrow will be a better day.

I heard a great thing; Not the exact quote but during the 70's they used drugs to change the world and now we are correcting the world using Prozac. Nothing can be so true. I have really wanted to get the shirt "Medicated for your protection" but probably wouldn't wear it... well maybe I would... I have no clue haha my mind changes enough by the second that its unpredictable...

I just know the edginess and hypomania coming. Not full blown Manic yet but could build to it. It's a bit scary after this last hospital visit and lack of money due to excess of bills this month has me all over the place. I am a bit scared. I do have a decent income but I am so stretched thin this month.

Everyone seems to have all this ability to do shit and its like WTF? Why can't I find a way to do something.

Must be a full moon or something... I am not a huge journal person but so many racing thoughts have came up and I don't know anyway to express them. Trying to find people that are like me is best in social platforms like IMVU or Second Life.

I recently had a near death experience from the 100th overdose (don't know the exact number I have done it) but wow its scary when they start asking you what religion you are and stuff and the feeling like everything is ending... its too hard to even explain the feeling unless u experience it.

As Hey There Delilah comes on and I think of someone that has ruined his life and one time loved him but I am not making some sappy love shit.

I am tired of this small boring village... there fucking up my prescriptions and making things so damn complicated. I don't trust anyone at this point. What is a person to do? I am having a hell of a time to just talk with people and at least find something to do.